she left. she finally left to US.

xiao tian can be said to be part of my memory. mostly happy memories with her. no sad memories, if not mistaken.

i know xiao tian through the stact club 19th rural service. throughout the whole service, we had never talk to each other before. maybe once or twice, but not much. the only thing i can remember is she taught me dancing and we had eating watermelon competition.

xiao tian, i dunno what is the only word that can describe her. i just know she always keeps her sorrows to herself. she never wants me to know. i do know this, but i just kept quiet. everytime i ask her whether is there anything that made her feel down or sad, the only answer she will give me is NAH. till she breaks down in front of me. and i always feel so helpless. i just have no idea that what can i do in over to lend her a hand.

i lied to her. i told her that i would be busy today and i couldnt go to KLIA to have a last meet with her. actually, this was joo and my idea. we planned to give a surprise. however, the plan was ruinned up.

we were late. we left house around 7.30pm which was after our dinner. as joo came to my house, so, we left from sungai buloh but not subang jaya. KLIA is so freaking far from sungai buloh. no choice as this was the only last meet before she leave to US.

i couldnt be in a rush condition. i was nervous and rushing all the way to KLIA. so, my stomach was not feeling pretty well. maybe i should describe the pain as the menstruation pain? yeah. i think it was kinda that feeling.

joo asked whether i could continue driving or he would take over the job. i really hoped that he took over the job. but, i continued to drive as joo is the guest and i couldnt just let him drive but me relaxing beside him. so, i just continued driving.

finally, we reached KLIA. however, we were late. the time showed 8.30pm.

suppose, we planned this way. joo will meet up with xiao tian. and i will webcam with xiao tian. previously, i told xiao tian to have the laptop with her all the time when she is being in KLIA. she really did it. she had her laptop with her for the whole moment. i just felt bad for that.

as the shortage of time, i just cancelled the plan of webcaming with her and just went to look for her with joo.

we met her and i was talking to her on the phone.

joo was smart. he walked off. i knew why would he do so.

there left xiao tian and i. actually, i got lots of stuff to tell her. but, facing her, my mind was blank. i just said nothing to her.

i wanted to capture a picture of her with me using my phone, but i did not have the courage to voice it out.

seeing her breaking down once again, i totally have no idea. i just didn know what i can do. i just kept quiet till she left.

xiao tian, take care.